My Awakening

Apparently I've been in denial since October, and today, 1/11/2010, I have learned the truth. I have realized my futile and fruitless actions for the last 3 months. The worst case scenario that I kept within my heart has, against all odds, become true. This feeling of helplessness and hopelessness has woken me from my prolonged daydream, and has made me feel incredibly ignorant and idiotic. From now on, at 11:11 I will wish that I never existed, because everything I've done has all been in vain. Love is like a Siren from Greek Mythology, beguiling foolish and oblivious men to their heartbreak.

I am a beggar who has just been robbed of everything.


Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be?
Or maybe be
Everything that I never thought could happen
Or ever come to pass and
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Cant see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams
In hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be
For you and me?

Cause you are
You're beautiful inside
You're so lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

♪: Anywhere But Here by Safetysuit
I'm: Dead